Pete left you this...

a few words scribbled on an envelope.
those words meant the world to me.
they were never anything special
to anyone but me.
they were there because...
he wanted them to be.
and i wanted them to be.
i saw the ink,
spread across some random piece of paper.
i dont think he knew how much it meant to me.
and i hate that i couldn't say a real thank you.
i could say it standing in front of him.
but could i say it when i wasnt being watched?
cameras. guards. fans.
all i want to do is say thank you.
with no one there that thinks i'm stupid.
no one there that thinks i'm just another fan.
no one there to push me away
when all i want is a hug.
i miss ten years ago.
ten years ago was on that envelope
in the form of a few words.
and she threw it away.