livin on a prayer.

literally.
i cant sleep.
but i never could.
so that's nothing new.
my eyes are burning.
somethings telling me "he doesnt care"
but I keep fighting.
i keep praying.
i keep...crying and giving up.
i dont want to live like this anymore.
i dont want to keep chasing one guy who will never care.
he will never understand why i keep doing this.
texting him. calling him. trying to get his attention.
he will never understand that all i want...
is to be worth something for once.
to be there for someone because no one was there for me.
he's got people surrounding him 24/7.
how could he ever feel alone?
but i've been down that road.
sometimes its nice to have someone there...
who just tries to understand.
someone who will listen and not go psychiatrist on you.
someone who will cry with you.
sometimes its nice.
sometimes.